Wisdom grows with age. As we grow older, we slowly tend to look at things differently. We appreciate the small things more and worry less about what we cannot control. Depending on your situation, maybe you’ve also come to understand that life is short and if you aren’t finding joy in your relationships, your job, your hobbies, your friendships, etc. then maybe it’s time to make a change or remove the thing, or person, from your life that no longer brings you joy.
I’ve shared from the beginning of this blog that the sole purpose it was created was out of a need for change. I really wasn’t 100% sure inside myself if I wanted something as simple as an outside hobby or regular escape or if I wanted to make a larger, more permanent change. While I’ve felt for some time that in a perfect world this place would become a more permanent change, I think I have really only recently admitted to myself that it’s because I truly and deeply no longer find joy in my business.
I’m sure deep down I’ve known that fact for some time but recently I’ve been hearing myself say things out loud to family and friends about how my job brings out the worst in me, how personally upset I get at unpleasant customers when I work so hard for them, and how I no longer feel motivated or inspired to grow and expand like I once did. I find myself wishing more and more that things would slow down so I had time to do other things… like spend more time here.
The truth is, lately more often than not, my job, my work, my business makes me feel more anxious, angry, upset and frustrated than fulfilled, joyful and content. Lately I feel like I’m always waiting for the next thing to go wrong instead of dreaming of ways I can make things better, grow and improve. Lately I’ve been feeling like I’m coming from a place of negativity only ever seeing small glimpses of the happy, joyful person I once was in my business. It’s an ugly and honest truth.
While I know right now I’d love to just walk away, the reality is that I do have client commitments that will take me through the summer and into the early fall. I also have financial obligations that make it impossible to just stop. That means I have roughly 3 ½ months to come up with a plan and begin working on the transition for where I want to go with my business.
In the coming weeks and months I’ll be continuing this series as I take you on my journey of what I plan to do with my business and how I will make it all happen. I don’t have all the answers but if you are in a place that feels like it’s bringing you down, my hope is that this journey inspires you in some way to begin making changes in your life.
Is there something or someone in your life that brings out the worst in you? Is there something or someone in your life that no longer brings you joy and only negative thoughts or feelings? If so, what did you do?